WE DID IT!

Week 4-

We did it! We made it through an entire game, and man am I SO glad! 

Noble stomped McAlester 48-7! Before the game, Tyler told Hudson if we made it to the end, 

he could go on the field. Emma was not excited to still be there at the end but there was no way I could leave before Hudson got to "help" daddy! It was a great week but I am so thankful we have  made it to the weekend. I need a day or two relax :)

 Before the games, Hudson loves waiting for the boys to walk through so he can give them high fives. It makes my heart happy to see the boys will stop and acknowledge him. It also makes me realize that in a few shorts years, that will be him...

 Hanging out with Hadley is his favorite!

 He was super concerned that someone made a huge mess on the field with ice 

and he insisted that his papa go look...

~Season 10~

Last week we embarked on our TENTH football season. Holy smokes, that makes me feel really old. Many things have changed since that first season and it seems each year, things get a little more complicated.

This year, I have a three year old who is VERY aware when his daddy isn't home and a one year old who thinks she is completely independent but must be in bed by 9pm or she turns into some other kind of kid...

9pm bedtimes and football seasons don't exactly mesh very well. This is week 2 of the season and the 2nd week we haven't made it through an entire game. Hudson was always a terrible sleeper so football didn't interfere with his schedule much, if any. Last year, Emma was so little that late nights didn't exactly make a difference for her. This year though, the struggle is real. I suspect that it will be about 2 more years (at least) before I am able to actually watch a football game again.

Other than the regular football stuff, not much has changed around here. I am still an Executive for Rodan + Fields, you can find our products HERE. I also have joined the MONAT team, well actually Tyler did but I am a believer in these products. If you are looking for some incredible hair care, CHECK THIS OUT! Seriously, I have never been one to be crazy about what hair products I use, but I will literally never use anything else. The dry shampoo is my favorite!!

This is a rather lame update considering I haven't posted in so long. I'll try to do better but I make no promises.

Until next time!

Satan loves doubt.

Ok. Let me start by saying that this last week tested me and it took a lot of quiet thinking and a long talk with a good friend to bring me back to being level headed.

I believe that Satan loves when he can make you question your ability as a mother. This week, through different situations, I almost let him win. 

We have officially taken the binky away from Hudson. He is 2.5 and Tyler and I both felt and agreed that it was time for us to have him be done with it. We have been transitioning away from it for a while making it where he could only have it at bedtime and car rides. Since we have taken it away (about a week now) he has slept through the night almost nightly-guys this is something we were happy with getting once a week. It's like he doesn't wake up looking for it anymore. Hudson has NEVER been a good sleeper and he has a hard time falling asleep. He will, on occasion, ask for his binky and Tyler and I can usually distract him with a toy or just saying not right now. He has not cried for it either. 

I received more "judgement" than I ever thought I would for doing this. I always anticipated being judged for letting him have it so long-which I was fine with because this works for us. I didn't anticipate judgement for taking it away. I guess it was the first time I ever felt "mom shamed." That surprised me because I breastfeed in public, co-sleep, and have never let my children cry it out. All of which are common things that moms disagree on. So first, let me apologize if I have EVER in anyway made you feel shamed for the way you raise your kids. If you are feeding and loving them, you are doing a great job! Parenting is hard enough without others telling you are doing it wrong. 

I believe that God gave Hudson and Emma to Tyler and I  because we are exactly the parents they need and we know what is best for them. Am I always going to get it right the first time? Probably not, but thats ok, God gives mercy and forgiveness. 

I am the mom who lives with mom guilt and constantly questions what I am doing. I feel guilty for working, I feel guilty when I snap, and I feel guilty when I play on my phone too much. But ya know what, my children are fed, bathed, clothed, and LOVED. 

Now this post isn't so people will tell me I'm a good mom. After this week, I learned I don't need the approval of others. So to all the parents out there just trying to figure it out, you guys rock! You do what works for you and your family. 

So the next time you feel like Satan is trying to steal your joy-remember you are good enough! 

That's all I have for now! 

Life

When I first decided to start a blog, my goal was to do one each week. I quickly learned that wasn't a reality for me (notice I haven't posted since September). I had big hopes of posting about the things I am passionate about and I wanted to inspire and yada yada yada... However, it seems that my posts have been completely random with whatever was on my mind at that very moment.

I just celebrated my 5 year anniversary at Dental Lodge. Never in my wildest dreams had I ever imagined that I would be the office manager of private dental practice. I am so thankful for that place and all the people I work with.

We are in a weird phase of life right now. We have a 2.5 year old and a 7 month old and boy do they keep us busy. Hudson is the most loving yet stubborn little fireball I have ever known. He loves to love but he also loves to see just how far he can push his limits. Emma is now starting to show her own sassy personality. Emma is much more clingy that Hudson ever was (as far as i can remember) and I find that interesting because I was much more clingy to Hudson since he was my first.

The days are long but the years are short.